Hina ng Loob

It hurts so much knowing the fact that you weren’t even mine in the first place. Accepting that I stayed so much in the so-called-friendzone-state.

Ang masakit talaga sa lahat, akala mo may babalikan ka pero wala. Wala naman kasing kayo. Hindi nagkaroon ng kayo. :(

I’m just so pathetic. It’s very very just very hard. :(

Awaken our senses, my heart says goodbye. I knew I’d be broken for the rest of my life. This time I won’t survive.

Kaya ayoko na yung mga hindi ko lam na sagot kasi kalokohan na un. Wala ng sense. Wala ng point. Hindi alam kung gusto ka magstay or hindi. Pero pag nagstay ka nasasaktan ka lang naman. FUCKTHISSHIT.

I get so lost and so confused, I’m just so tired of being used. I’m just so tired and so afraid that you might leave me everyday. I wish you’d just make up your mind.

Gusto kong tumakas. Gusto kong mawala na lang bigla. Ayoko nang harapin ang mga ganitong problema. TOO MAINSTREAM! *hipsturr*

Oh well. Ayoko na kasi. Sobrang sakit na. Hindi ko kinakaya. Mahirap din magbreakdown ng patago. Kung kaya ko lang magpakamatay ginawa ko na. Badtrip eh. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ang hina ko.

Sana matapos na lang lahat to. San matakasan ko to. Sana malagpasan ko to. Kasi sobrang nahihirapan na ako.

I never thought I’d be the one with the weakness
You call the shots, while I stay up at night sleepless
It’s so pathetic, I make myself sick
I can’t get over you, I can’t get over any of this

I think I’m incapable to be.

I had to make a decision.

Since you want to play it safe, I have to. I hope it’s right. All I wanted to see was a little effort to put it back but I can’t see it. I can’t feel it. I have this fear that if I was the one who puts effort again to save this make-believe-relationship then I would just hurt myself. 

Oh well, at least this time I don’t have to wonder anymore.